the pain of recalling memories of an empty life (playlist)

TIMESTAMPS / (author/s) 00:00 fading over time (scapes.) 03:16 snowfall (øneheart/reidenshi) 05:17 on something to which i won't admit (fading language) 07:50 time slows down (nowt) 11:07 broken air (exist strategy) 13:30 dear friend (repulsive) 17:05 what doesn't hold is bound to break (fading language) 23:09 let the sea take it away (nowt) 28:00 oktagon (ibi) 31:52 for a new meaning 'slowed' (nowt) 36:23 reverence (exist strategy) 39:17 i'll wait for you (exist strategy) 41:29 winter fingertips (monosleep)

For all those here in their late teens/early 20s thinking they've done nothing with their lives. We're still learning. We have such a ways to go. Our lives have just begun and just because you don't believe you've made a difference doesn't mean you haven't. You may have no idea how much you mean to someone else. At the very least.. all of you have made me realize I'm not alone in my own feelings.

Isnt weird how in the end we all just die and everything we ever owned, everything we ever knew, everything we ever said, experienced, felt, smelled, heard, everything just stays here. It doesn’t go with you. That first love you never told anyone about, that first kiss you never told anyone about, those little secrets you have never told a soul, they all just cease to exist with you. Life is so tragically beautiful it hurts. I’m so peacefully depressed.

I'm 27 years old and i still feel as helpless as 11 years old me, nothing changed i'm still looking at my reflection in the mirror and telling her it's going to be okay. Nothing changed except my features are getting older. I don't know how long i'm going to keep fighting, i don't even know what i'm fighting for. Everything seems meaningless to me.

you dont realize how alone you are until you sit back and look at all the people you've lost. it really feels like i have no one, i dont live near my family and i dont have friends anymore. its funny, my biggest fear was always being alone and now that i am i dont know what to do with myself. i dont know how to make friends or be social and it hurts to know that i may have already lost the best and only friends of my life. someday i hope I'll be able to overcome this, but for now I can sit in the comfort of my room in the middle of the night listening to this music and reading everyone elses comments knowing that im not the only one struggling. stay strong everyone, we can get through this.

We didn't realize we were making memories, we were just having fun - Winnie The Pooh

the worst part is not remembering the memories in your life until someone recalls a memory and it all comes back, the memories flooding all at once.

It’s been a while since i have been crying like this. Yet i am somehow happy about it. I read through the stories of strangers and suddenly i don’t feel that alone anymore.

I dont know how many "it is what it is" I have left in me man

The darkest patch of night sky holds galaxies unseen just as a the soil beneath our feet is home to more bacteria than there are stars. Don’t discount times that you see as empty, there is always something

I'm gonna be 22 this year... I feel like nothing has really changed since I was around 13. It feels like a one very long day. I still can't get over many things, can't let go, can't move on. I'm honestly suprised I've made this that far. Edit. And now I am 22 heh

I love reading these comments truly helps to feel less alone

They didnt notice you were crying They didn't notice you were sad They didn’t notice you were tired They didn’t notice you were alone They didn’t notice how attentive you were They didn’t notice how sweet you actually are... They didn’t notice how you actually try to make others smile They did notice you failing grades They did notice your unattractive They did notice the mean side of you They did notice all your mistakes They did notice all you flaws They did notice that you weren’t good enough for them. But you stayed strong You kept going on You never gave up on hope You never let them take you down And you know they wasn’t good enough for you And that’s what make you stronger

you know your at that stage of life where you feel nothing like you don’t know what the hell is wrong with you just a blank thought in your head like you can’t even cry to empty yourself that’s how I feel

Most likely no one will notice this comment, but I come here every afternoon and evening. It helps me a lot with depression and my anxiety. I am nobody and I have no future. I am happy that even if my name will be forgotten before I even say it, I can at least be a part of this community. For me, this music is compassion and another world at the same time. Edit: Thank you all so much for your kind comments. You gave me a lot of hope. I appreciate your help. Many of you have written that you have similar problems - to those who are struggling with it, but also to everyone else, I wish you the best of luck on your life's journey, healing and happiness. 💕

So young yet I already feel tired. Living the same day everyday and always trying to make sure everyone around me is happy. Sometimes I forget to even care about my own mental health. As I cry at this moment, my tears fall emptily from my eyes. I just want to rest for a while.

"Death isn't scary... what's really scary is... being all alone..." - Takemitchi Hangaki

It doesn’t get easier you just become stronger

I can appreciate every single one of my memories. What seems empty to others might be the fullest to someone else.

Listening to this at 3am while laying on my bed and it's windy outside is such a vibe. Stay safe everyone 💜