An Autistic Sociopath's Story (A Life with Few Emotions)

Thanks for interviewing me ☺️

I love how she said "what normal people do automatically, I have to do manually". That is such a quick and clear way to explain being neurodivergent.

What she’s talking about is “cognitive empathy.” Technically she doesn’t feel empathy the way people without her diagnoses do, but she practices it cognitively. She chooses to be empathetic, which I think is pretty cool.

One emotion I see from her soooo clearly is shame. She feels so ashamed that she cannot care for others and interact with others the way society expects, and it just adds to the trauma she has experienced. I feel for her and I hope she finds a team of professionals and a community to get her the help she needs. She's so brave and wants so badly to be with others and be cared for in the ways she has clearly been denied all her life, and I hope that she gets that.

This baby is in survival mode. She's protecting herself, her whole self.

Her mom disowning her is a prime example of mental illness stigma. It’s awful.

I actually think it’s amazing that she can’t technically feel empathy but she chooses it. It shows that she IS genuinely a good person.

Despite her diagnoses, it's obvious she's still trying to be the best person she can be. That says more about her than her diagnoses!

It’s hard to understand yourself when you’re ‘broken’ as a child because you never know what it feels like to be ‘normal’.

Not having empathy doesn't automatically make someone a bad person. Even without empathy, one can practice compassion, and it seems that she does.

I have ASPD, and it really sucks. You have to work twice as hard to think and operate as a “normal” human. You want to be around people, but you can get burnt out super quickly, because normal people don’t understand your differences. They lack the patience it takes to relate to you and understand you enough to connect with you. They tell you to try harder to be normal, without realizing that you’re being as normal as you’re able.

7:30 is so important to correct, she DOES feel emotions, just not social ones. For example, she feels happy whenever her friend brings her favorite food. Or she feels frustrated when she’s stuck in traffic. She’s not a robot, BUTTTT when it comes to social interactions and situations where if I were to share I got fired from my job and now struggling to get food, she wouldn’t care. She’d logically know it’s bad, but emotionaly not feel any empathy. Just wanted to mention this incase anyone else was wondering how she even functions if she never experienced ANY emotions lol.

She has every right to be angry as she was abused as a child and that is so wrong.

bro this girl is/was abused. Her mom saying she'd disown her? This is TRAUMA manifested. I hope she finds peace and happiness and humanity.

Nails it about the therapist crying, getting angry and then being triggered enough to triple label her in a psych eval that will probably follow her around and cause yet more issues for her. "Like, I thought they got training so they wouldn't take on the client's issues ?"

This interview helped me understand my son(15) a little better. He always says he has to pretend around everyone except me, so I get the anger and sadness. He says sorry 100x a day but it doesn’t seem he really cares. Thanks for sharing your story Cassie

If I take her story about her therapist at face value, that therapist was totally out of line. It isn’t the patients job to commiserate, empathize, or modify their story for the therapists benefit. If a therapist is triggered by a patients reality then they should refer the patient to someone else. Period.

"I will disown you if.." is emotional abuse and probably was the breeding ground of the antisocial personality disorder. This is a really excellent interview. Thank you for sharing your story.

Wow. Her level of self awareness is beyond. Thank you for sharing this interview

“I care about him because he cares about me” man I felt that. I find it very hard sometimes to care about other people even people who are nice to me and genuinely do care for me. I am also often confused about the idea of friendship and romantic relationships and just socializing in general. I just don’t understand the idea of attraction and what draws two people together whether as friends or romantically. Although I’m not diagnosed with ASPD I am on the spectrum and this video hit home in a very personal way.