This stunning absence... there's nothing more delicious (December 2023)

People usually confuse this with depression, and i can understand that.

Case in point on my prior comment: the participants in this video may be surprised to know that their sharing brought me to deep tears of gratitude. The process of waking up to the Real feels less isolating when a worldwide sangha can be experienced. With a deep bow of gratitude to Suzanne and all who bravely shared. ❤🙏

I want to escape family burdens as well. I feel guilt often about not doing enough, and that guilt just wears me down further. I also want to escape my unmet, unfulfilled sexual desires. My thoughts drive me nuts. I used to smoke a lot of weed, smoke a half a pack of cigarettes, and get drunk every day and that did seem to help me feel OK in my body. I stopped doing that because I thought those habits weren't good for me (or my finances.) I really want to escape with them again, but it kind of makes me feel sick and shameful when I do. Arrgghh! I'm so tired of myself! Thanks for the discussions - it's nice to empathize with others.

I’m the same kind of weirdo who wants to be home. I also take care of my mom and I alone do this. I have a brother who gets a pass in taking care of her because of how much money he makes compared to me. I work at a women’s shelter and I will never get rich there. My brother is a radio personality and he makes 6 figures a year so he is excused from taking care of Mom. I feel sooooo angry about this but I’m supposed to just accept it because ‘that’s how it is.’

Grateful for Suzanne allowing others to speak without judgment or comparing. So pleasant.

There is something so very comforting and accessible about these conversations. As though the impersonal nature of “this“ is being communicated in a deeply personal and intimate way. A lovely invitation to take it all in so naturally, so innocently… 🙏🏼🫥💙

i don't have a stable situation in my life so i can have fearful thoughts and feelings about the future and anxiety but in another way i guess i just accept things as they are so these negative feelings always end up vanishing into deep acceptance and surrender i guess, and then it becomes peaceful again and it's really about the present moment. it's always the same mind mechanism at play each time painful feelings arise. worries are impermanent basically

1:32 love this video and the “what wants to be genuinely expressed here” without thought of attainment. It’s noticed here that when the linear, goal-oriented mind imagines itself to be doing “good things” for the world, in fact what is happening is a strengthening of identity. Has also become clear that the mind’s limited perspective is literally incapable of seeing the total impact of even the tiniest bit of good that a Being has done. A small act of kindness of a stranger has had long-lasting impacts here that I was never able to thank them for. I even tried to find school teachers who massively impacted who this Being became in the relative world to thank them, but to no avail. The Universe does not keep the mind’s ledger. 😊 (Edit) Reminds me of this quote in the Bhagavad Gita: “Work done with anxiety about results is far inferior to work done without such anxiety, in the calm of self-surrender. Seek refuge in the knowledge of Brahma. They who work selfishly for results are miserable.”🎉

Lovely talk and conversations. I’m a fellow weirdo

Hi lets talk as if we’re in a community, a community where we can talk and be understood

Thank you Suzanne. I know and experience what you mean. The blissful peace of emptiness is ineffable but I appreciate your attempts at articulating non-clinging, non-duality, and non-delighting.

Thank you to the Bank Manager! Dear, I SO very much relate to the rage you describe. The expectations of family, and outright hatred of humanz! Keep on burning through those energies stored in the body! We all here have so much betrayal in our past. But yeah, it's in the body, the battery of abuse. We will get there, even tho there's no place to go. Thank you to all!!

Love the new bright broadcast space—it appears happier all around. Thank you

Suzanne, you rock. Thank you for sharing everything you do. So insightful!

Love the first 20 minutes.

I totally hear Jaz. I've been there. I've managed to pull away quite a bit. I look after myself, my wants and needs now. I have not found it easy to put myself first but you quickly learn that the takers don't give back and if you're not doing it for them, they move on to find the next pleaser. Take care of you Jaz. 😘😘😘

Yes. There is nothing more delicious than this and nothing else is needed or can compare

Oasis of sanity. I like that. Resonates deeply. After awakening and falling back asleep it has occurred to me that my ego wanted to "bottle it" and take it with me. Doesn't work.

I can relate with the way you described the relationships. It's like the constant reactivity to conversations just doesn't seem to take place any more. It feels more natural to be silent most of the time. On the other hand, at the same time there's more intimacy with the friends. As it feels like just one thing happening, not separate from them.

this video so resonate with me i competely agree with this because i also love being weird, lazy, weak, fear, love and shy i love to stand around doing nothing all day being lazy i also don't like being force to do things i don't wanna do that don't make me happy but my family and the majorityy always force most of us to do things most of us don't wanna do i disagree they always say we have to do things we don't wanna do ln life sometimes i'm also not ok with that either i hate the majoritiy that are not understanding that i don't like being told what to do force me and most of us to do things most of us don't wanna do because i always love to do what makes me happy i also don't like being told what to do and i also don't like that i can't feel that way because i think we have the right to feel how we wanna feel by standing up for ourselves if some of us don't like being told what to do being force to do things we don't wanna do i said the exact samething too just let us be and can we just be that it just is i competely agree nothing needs to change because that's exactly how i feel too i love the way i am i would never change improve and impress anyone because i know it won't make me happy at all and i also said the samething all i also want is peace freedom