Dealing with Death of a Best Friend

I came here from your gaming channel after you mentioned it in your Samus video. I'm so glad I did, I know this video is almost a year old but it's so relatable. I've lost one of my best friends as well and what you said about forgiveness is so true.

Hi Jtails, this video really hit home with me, as i'm dealing with it now too. The description is so true. You never know what battles people are fighting. I try to be as kind as I can to everyone. You never know, it may just make their day.

thank YouTube for helping me hear ppls experiences cuz its tough talking to rest of us survivors cuz its tough but if they bring it up i hear em out and vent also

Thank you for making this video. It is providing good comfort for me during my current grief.

thank you for posting this. i lost one of my best friends last year to a heroin overdose. the night he went out to the party where he died, i was asked to join him but declined since i was getting some cosplays ready for san diego comicon. the day after my trip to comicon i found out he passed and was in denial up until his funeral. for months, i felt a huge sense of guilt for not going out with him that night. maybe he wouldn't have overdosed, and maybe he'd still be here. these thoughts haunt me to the point where my anxiety has gotten worse. next thursday is his birthday, and the first where i won't be seeing him :( its something I'm still trying to process even after his passing but only time will tell when i progress out of this depression from the loss of my best friend.

Yeah, I told him I wanted to be a professional dancer and he pushed me forward to do it. I never had faith in myself but he did so now I have to do it. Some nights are really horrible. One night I had a panic attack and all that. The only thing that helps me is writing.

I watch this video since I first found your channel and it was the reason I thought you were such a great youtuber my grandfather just passed away December 11 and I watched this video again today it was really helpful. Anyway I wanted to sincerely say thank you not just for the smash content but for the day to day today smiles I get from watching your video and I thought it was hilarious the first time you replied to one of my comments making a stoner joke because of spell check changing Bowser to browser.. I honestly hope Bowser is the last character you do so that way you can do him the most justice I definitely do not mind waiting because there's so many demanding new subs that you have obtained who want you to get videos up for their mains in every videos comments there's practically a list of every characters being asked to be next and that's great.......... Congratulations on 10k subs JTAILS HYPE

I'm so sorry. It's not your fault. If you need anyone, I'm there for you. 😥

Thanks for sharing. It feels kinda great to hear from people going through the same thing I went through (more like still going through). This September will be the first year anniversary of my best friend's death. There are days where I feel happy or "normal" but then there's always that one day where you just randomly burst out in tears. I still feel regret and guilt for how things ended between us prior to her death. Unfortunately, I have not visit her grave yet... I hope someday I find the courage to. Anyways, I hope you make better progress than I have. I'll pray for you during your recovery. Thanks again :D

I share your feelings and I feel you. (I may be typing alot, and my phone is kinda weird about typing on youtube, so I apologize in advance for the wall of text). It's been just over a year since I lost someone close to me as well: my cousin. He passed away August of last year from a heroin overdose. I was away in WA visiting my Uncle's family when I found out. When I came back to San Diego county, my mind still could not believe he was gone; it was as though nothing about it was real, all surreal, like a dream. About a week after returning our family and friends held his funeral. I was supposed to give a speech, but when I got there his mom told me no one was going to do that now. But I still wanted to. I am a writer at heart, but I've always been painfully shy for many reasons, and the words become lost and choked somewhere between my heart and throat and I didn't say much. I remember feeling something like a wall falling, emotions dying, and shame seeing the facing in the audience expressing almost all an air of bemused contempt that I seemed to some how break the expected solemness of a funeral with my broken words and teary voice. After we left the chapel all I could do was to run away to some place quiet and cry for the first time since he (my cousin) died. However it is, I have a hard time letting myself cry (perhaps I feel ashamed of crying), and I tend to let my feelings become too internalized until I can write them out in a manner that is like a polished facad over a decaying corpse: beauty masking sorrow. I've been following your Sm4sh videos for about a year, I reckon, but this is the first I've viewed your other channel. I want to thank you from the bottom of heart for making this video. At least for me, the very realness you present, and honest love you express for your friend, and the care shown for those who would watch the video, brought tears to my eyes and helped me remember I am not so alone as I often feel. Thank you Julian (Hope I remembered your real name right). I know you don't know me, but I'm always all ears.

I haven't dealt with this situation exactly, but a kid i looked up to while i was little got hooked on pot and started stealing and selling anything he could find to be able to buy more. He ran away probably 4 months ago and is probably half the state away from here now. Or, his corpse is half a state away by now, i dont even know. Although I don't know what is worse, knowing that your friend is dead, or not knowing whether your idol as a little kid is shivering all alone, or is filled to the brim with maggots. However, im very sorry for your loss, im sorry if it sounded like i tried to steal the attention.

Thank you for making this..

awww baby :c I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm here if you want to talk or anything.

Thank you for posting this video. I just found out that my friend, whom I've known since we were kids, passed away in a tragic accident the other day. I have been remembering the good times and smiling and then it just hits me and I start crying out of the blue. I cannot wrap my mind around the fact that he is gone.

This story makes my crying:( i hope youre better yet. You got your community, and thats a family, which will help you with every problem (well, i will :D). Sry for my english

Wow , your'e a great young man to offer help to the people on you tube, I just found out that my good friend committed suicide, this was his third and final attempt. I'm just looking reach out and talk and listen . So far your video has helped me even thou i have gone thru this seven times two brothers a grandmother an uncle and three great friends . I feel that it gets worst every time. I worry that one day I'll be alone left with all this sadness to bear. Thanks for your video.

i realize that this video was made a while ago but know that it is still helping people.... my best friend killed himself at the age of sixteen a little over two months ago and it's been tough. your video really helped me and has given me hope that it will get better soon.

My bestfriend ezra passed today he seemed so happy & I just cant understand why him? Why now? Why is God doing this? I try to keep my calm but tears are just rolling down my face it's not fair he was 15 too young I just want to be okay

I just lost my best friend. He died right after my birthday (7/13). He was bicycling and a tractor trailer hit him. I found out the other day and I am devastated. I've lost someone before but this is worse. I've been a total wreck and I can hardly come out of my room to see my family. I've been talking to people and it has helped I just wish I could see him again.

You rock bro, always enjoy your honesty and modesty. I am 100% available for a chat !