6 months of depression later | episode five

“Pride is a burden” Very well said! It’s a burden and a huge block to seeing ourselves and others accurately and with compassion.

You hit the nail on the when you said depression makes you think a future isn't even possible for you. Knowing that other people have gone through that exact same hell and made it through to the other side, gives me a little bit of hope for myself ♡

you're literally so real for this rn

Coming out of that low point where you thought you wouldn't make it is a big deal. Thank you for being so transparent with us Kaiti ❤

Being this vulnerable with millions of people isn't easy. Forget easy its scary so i hope you know how many people including myself you are helping by doing this series love you lots ❤

Just found this. I was diagnosed with CPTSD, generalized anxiety disorder, persistent and major depressive disorder and sensory processing disorder. Not to mention slipped disks and sciatica and chronic pain. This is from lifelong abuse up until I was 22. These videos are very relatable and the way you talked to yourself and handled your depression was very inspiring and helped remind me of a lot of things I lose sight of often. I beat myself up for not being as able to do life as others and it is so hard to remember that other people not dealing with this don't understand that I'm doing really well if I even get out of bed. Your videos spread awareness and realistic healthy ways to deal with depression so thank you for being vulnerable.

Kaiti has always been my favorite YouTuber but with these videos, she has shot even higher. I love her so much❤️

I love how openly you talk about your mental health and your faith, you’re such a blessing in many people’s lives <3

I totally empathize with the concept of looking down on others. I looked down on people struggling with simple symptoms of a bad mental health especially if I thought they had no 'real problems'. Ultimately, it was my own experience with depression that taught me the empathy I needed to treat others with gentleness and kindness.

Man, after a severe clinical depression now i look back at those days its scary to think i wish turn back those dark toughts. Its never completely gone. I was enjoying to think deep all i did overthink day to night it makes u feel intelligent and thinking the way out is death. I was suicidal and i think i kinda attempted. Slowly overcome, now i go gym train hard, study what i want to study. Still i don't get old enjoyments but we are strugglers we have to endure suffering and try to live, if u really have crappy life end of the day u can tell yourself despite all those pain i endured i keep trying to live. Thats badass to think.

As someone who has struggled with depression on a consistent basis for a large portion of my life, I remember feeling so seen when you posted that first video. For the first time in my life I didn’t feel foreign or weird. Logically I know that thousands of people struggle with depression everyday but it was so different seeing someone I had found a light in also going through darkness. I am so incredibly grateful for you Kati, you have no idea. It takes great courage to bare your soul in this way, especially in this world that we live in. Thank you. Love you lots and keeping you in my prayers. ❤

ever since i started watching your very first fashion videos..i’ve loved watching you grow and change and i’ve related even though i’m at different stages. this year was the hardest year of my life so far too and i just think it’s so cool we’ve been coming out of all this hurt together. thanks kaiti for everything 💕

I have been loving this series for the realness of these struggles. I for sure feel less alone. But, I actually got a hair cut yesterday!

Thank you so much for being so open about your mental state! Im so glad im seeing more and more creators being open about the mental states theyre going through.

There are two types of depression: Situational vs Chronic. Situational depression is the set of circumstances that makes you depressed. ( Job loss, poverty, etc etc) no pills will help. You need to change the set of circumstances.Cbronic depression is something that u only pills can help, as it due to a chemical imbalance in your brain.

Can't wait to watch! Hope you can be in a better place emotionally. I will keep you in my prayers.💕

I really appreciate the emotional honesty. Depression is exhausting.

Hi Kaiti! I'm a new viewer. First video I saw was your first depression video and it really helped me to put things into perspective as I grappled with my own recent depression diagnosis. Lately life has felt very bleak and I have felt so alone and unable to reach out to anyone around me for fear of being misunderstood but your videos make me feel less alone. Thank you so much ❤

thank you for sharing kaiti💗 while I think you're impressive overall, I was most impressed by your willingness to admit you were wrong and prideful. that takes so mich strengthen and humility

Really glad you are on the mend, and you can stay on top of things. Thanks for sharing.